Aiyoz… 2 friends tot i was preggy and congratulated me… =P NO! i am not preggie as yet… hehehhe… i was just thinking of my previous pregnancy with Ross… =P
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3 close friends of mine gave birth in the past 3 weeks… this reminded me of the tiring time i went through when Ross was born… no matter how hard i tried to recall the actual details of the birth, the growing up etc, i cannot remember in detail and still cannot believe that Ross is already 19 months young…
From the word go, i was filled with both delight and fear… Fear cos my gynae told me at 4-5 weeks that i should not be telling everyone about the pregnancy as yet, as the egg set cant be seen (goodness knows what, i just know that you need to see a pair of things! =P)… at 6 weeks, it was confirmed that it was a healthy pregnancy… however, a week after the last check up, spotting started… then a visit to A&E, a jab and plenty of worries followed till the spotting stopped…
worries of consuming too much coffee before i know i was preggie entered into my head…
worries of having done bad karma in my current life will be passed on to the baby and the baby may be born with defects etc…
worry of having to go thru the uncalled protocols at KKH struck me at the fifth month… which made me took up Hypnobirthing, Ginny as my doula and a switch of gynae to Dr Paul…
when that is settled… what more worries can you think of? worries of not having read enough antenatal books, breastfeeding books…
worries of all the what ifs… what if i cant breastfeed… what if Hypnobirthing doesnt work… what if i need emergency C-sec… what if i died during childbirth and Ross is alone with Daddy… what if this, what if that…
Worries of Group B strep… of VE during labour… etc….
Worries… what are they? they are the manifest of a mother’s love for the most wonderful miracle that God has created…
The Love for a Little One….
